Hmmm.. I've gone checked everyone's blog and A is the only person to update hers... L's is down for some reason.. I hope she and A aren't having a disagreement... and I hope nothing that I've made comments about have caused this... *sigh*

OK, I'm going to make a statement to both of you, and please feel free to ignore it or tell me to shut the hell up, because it's really not my business at all and neither of you have asked for my opinion. Here's my statement... Neither one of you can fix your family. Neither one of you can change your family. Neither one of you is to blame for the problems your mother/father/brother/sister has. Neither one of you is responsible for anyone else's happiness other than your own. Happiness comes from within, you can NOT make someone else happy. (A if you want your two little ones to learn to be happy people, they have to learn to be happy from you..) DO NOT feel GUILTY for being happy or doing something YOU want to do. YOU DO NOT owe your family your life. L - if you want to visit A and the kids, then do it, if you don't want to stay with mom, don't, if you don't want to stay with A, don't.. you can stay at a hotel, you DO NOT have to stay with any of them. AND you do NOT need to explain to your parents your choice, just say that's what you want to do. *sigh* I know... it's eaiser said than done.. but don't take the guilt trip... either one of you... OK, I'm done..

Mmm.. spice cake... I love spice cake. Hubby wanted spice cake tonight. it was good. He made chicken fried steak.. I can not make that. I always fuck it up, so he made it. It was very good. Chicken fried steak, peas, potatoes with gravy and salad. YUM!

Woody Allen: "Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand."

George Burns: "It isn't premarital sex if you have no intention of getting married."

Harvey Korman: "Using Viagra is like putting a new flagpole on a condemned building."

Just some funny quotes a friend sent me.

L - I just have to giggle.. I love to watch Food Network.. I don't have cable right now so I can't - WHAAAA!!!! A note about the fish - Tuna (really good tuna, like Sashimi tuna) is only supposed to be seared (it's wonderful like that too! - but I like Sushi and Sashimi) most other fish are supposed to be cooked all the way through. As a rule a home cook should always cook all fish until it's opaque - Home cooks may not handle the fish properly and end up getting something nasty. But another note on tuna - Sashimi Tuna steaks are wonderful even cooked all the way through. mmmm... Wish they weren't so expensive, I'd eat them all the time. Avacado.. yum... I may have to get an avacado for dinner now... wish I was in California to get a really fresh one!

going to nap now. YAWN!!!!

hehehe... yeah I told you I'd be over being upset today. My friend called and told me that they were unavoidably delayed and appologized profusely. I'm just a big baby who had to whine about it last night. *snicker*

I should be heading out the door, off to work right now, but I'm not. I'm sitting here yawning... I didn't get to sleep until after 4:30 am DAMN! I went to bed before that, but then I couldn't fall asleep. The last thing I remember was rolling over and looking at the clock - it was 4:30.... (don't you hate that, when your trying to sleep, and you can't but you keep looking at the clock like somehow knowing what time it is will make your brain say "Holy shit! It's that time?!? We have to get up in 2 hours! I better let you sleep!" But I did go to sleep, and I didn't hear any mouse noise. There's probably no mice.. just me imagining it... Im mouse crazy....

Ya know, I really hate it when people promise something then don't follow through. Even if they had every intention of following through but didn't. Actually, if they make a promise then can't follow through but don't tell me before hand that they can't do it.. that pisses me off. What I'm talking about mostly is when someone says they will meet you somewhere then they don't, and don't even bother to let you know before you go somewhere to meet them... or to leave you a message or anything. And I'm not talking about a date situation (date? What's that? Havent' been on one of thoes in a long time), I can excuse someone who stands me up for a date... Hell one time, I had a date with this one guy, we had agreed to meet at the movie theater, well I got unavoidably delayed getting there so I was 45 mins late! I made it to the theater just as he was leaving. I felt horrible. I called the next day but he was so pissed off he wouldn't talk to me, I called a couple of more times, I figured I owen him an appology if nothing else, He finally took my call and we rescheduled for right after a holiday that was coming up - but he didn't get back into town when he thought he would so we didn't hook up, well the next week, we finally get back in touch and decide to have dinner this time, so we make plans to meet at a restaraunt, he never shows up. Oh well, I had a nice dinner anyway (I had chosen the restaraunt - it was one of my favorites). I never talked to him again, but I understand his need to stand me up after I left him standing at the theater for 45 mins. Anyway... that's a long time ago, I'm sure that angry young man has had many other stand ups, etc. hehehe... Anyway.. I hate waiting on friends who say they will be somewhere and dont' show. Being late is pretty bad, I don't like to wait and wait and wait... because I'll wait for someone... I've waited for an hour for people to show up before. I'm usually on time when I meet people.. anyway.. just not fucking showing up is just mean and rude. Anyway.. I'm just venting because someone just did this (did you already guess before I said this?). I know they will never read this... they aren't one of the 4 loyal readers who give a crap about what I say. hehehe.. and that's probably good, because I know this is just trivial and not worth getting into a confrontation about. I know that by tomorrow I'll be over this, just chalk it up to them being undependable.. once again... Mild amount of disapontment but I still love them and will forgive them.

But on a brighter note, my mouse problem may be solved... The friend who is harboring our cats needs to get rid of them, my grandmother has offered to take them in September when she will be moving near by. so we may have our kitties back for a couple of weeks. I miss them... *sigh* Anyway.. Sunshine, the master mouser, would get any mouse/vermin that would be here, so I'll hold off on turning my bedroom into the mouse death fields. I'll let Sunshine the Mouse-inator do it! HAHAHAHAHA! She says "Meow, Meow, Meow.." (translation...'I'll be back..') *picture small orange tabby in mirrored sunglasses and leather jacket*

Well A - I read your blog just now.. I laughed so hard, I thought I was going to pee my pants! Now would killing a little vermin infesting one's living premisses really be bad karma? or is the fact that there is one (maybe more!) in your abode in and of it self bad chi? some kind of cosmic punishment so to speak? I haven't found any decerning literature on this subject so I'll just have to go with my gut. I may wait another night and see if it is truly a mouse rummaging through my belongings.. I checked my bedroom today and did not see any evidence of a mouse (ie mouse turds or nibbled on papers).. so one more night, and if I have another sleepless night then all bets are off, I set up a little death trap under my bed, traps and poison. I'm not in to the trapping of vermin and letting them free at some nice vacation place. How do I know that this little fucker doesn't really like living in my apartment and can find it's way back? I don't, so it's curtains for that little pest if he doesn't head for the hills now. I will feel no guilt for this either, I will have been provoked.. and come on, mice breed like... well MICE! It's not like I'd be snapping the neck of Spotted Owl or some other endangered animal. Anyway... we'll see if he disturbs my sleep tonight or not.

L - I understand how you feel...completely.. on all levels... even the underwear part. *sigh* That sucks about getting an all expense paid guilt trip from your mom. My mom used to do that ALL the time. Forget about it L, you have to live your life, and your right, you can't fix them... You want a vacation? You need a vacation? Then do it. You are a grown woman and you deserve it. Now go book a tropical vacation and forget about all this other stuff!

damn I need to get going now... I think my brain is on empty right now anyway...

I just stole this off H's blog. I thought it was interesting...

1. What is your current occupation? Is this what you chose to be doing at this point in your life? Why or why not?

My current occupation is full time mother, part time baby photographer. Yes I did choose to be a mother, and I guess I sort of chose to be a baby photographer also.. I mean the job just kind of came to me when I needed something flexible that made a little money (and that's all it makes - just a LITTLE money). Why? Well I love being with my kids, and being a mother is the most fulfilling job/responsibility I've ever had. When I was young I never expected to feel that way. For right now in my life.. this is what I choose - Mom and baby photographer.

2. If time/talent/money were no object, what would your dream occupation be?

Fashion designer, journalist, painter or gourmet chef

3. What did/do your parents do for a living? Has this had any influence on your career choices?

*sigh* that's a good question... My father has been a maintenance man/air conditioning tech for the past 30 or so years, briefly he worked at a few factory jobs, and for a while he worked as a maintenance man at Disney Land (damn that was a great year for us kids!) My mother worked a variety of low paying, dead end jobs... she had many tallents but never had a job that utilized them.. she never choose to challenge herself and find a job that would use her talents or would pay her what she was worth. My step father... well he always took the easy way out for the most part, he was a truly gifted individual. He had real talent and intelegent, but he also choose to take jobs that did not challenge him fully. And every time he got close to really succeeding in his professional life, he would walk away. *sigh* it was very frustrating to live with.

How did this influence me? Well I made sure to have some skills before I joined the job force, I had secretarial skills and did that for 10 years. From my father I got his tenacity to stick with something and work hard... and to let other's notice your work, don't be a big bragger. My mother's career choices made me never want to work in a job like hers, and my step-father's job instability taught me not to walk away from something just because it seems a little difficult or because I may not like someone I work with. I don't give up eaisly.. although I don't always jump out there to take on a new challenge.. sometimes I'm far to afraid to do it.. not that I'll fail, just fear in general. Although.. that's changed quite a bit since I stopped working in the corporate world. Working as a baby photographer has taught me to just walk in and do what I need to. I may not succeed, but I won't fail either. That's helped me get over the general fear I've had of new challenges. I still get a little nervous some times, but I've realized if I have a job to do, I can't just walk away when it's a little hard.


4. Have you ever had to choose between having a career and having a family? hmmmm.. I'm not really sure....

5. In your opinion, what is the easiest job in the world? What is the hardest? Why?

Easiest job - I worked as a receptionist for a school district for a while. All I did was answer phones and read the paper.. that WAS part of my job. I got maybe 20 or 30 calls all day. I'd either take a message or transfer the call, continue reading the paper... I would beg people for something to do.

Hardest job - Jr High or High School Teacher... a good teacher... trying to get 20 + young people in a room to pay attention so you can TEACH them something when they have little to no interest in what your are saying has got to be a thankless job. And the pay is really awful. God Bless all the good teachers in the world, may they not become jaded and disillusioned.

I got my husband to answer the same questions - his answers are a lot more to the point than mine hehehe... I do talk a lot. here are his answers:
1. Tech Support -- NO. It's dull and boring. No challeng in it.
2. I'd be a professional hypnotist...What kind of question is that?
3. Movie Producer and Bookkeeper. Yes, avoid Hollywood at all cost!
4. Nope.
5. Cashier is the easiest, mindnumbingly dull.
President of the United states is the hardest due to the fame and the pressure.

OK, so last night I didn't get much sleep. I went to bed at my usual - midnight. Turned off the light and then I heard a noise... a soft noise.. like paper being blown. I figured it was the celliling fan blowing some paper. Then I hear another noise... hmmm.... not paper this time.. After 10 mins of this.. I turn the light on and look around. No noise now, I can't find any paper.. OK, I'm having flash backs from "The Others" now... Then I reason.. I must have a MOUSE in my room! DAMN IT! So I go back to bed. But I can still hear that little fucker.. And I didn't get much sleep, I'm such a light sleeper... I should have done what D did for her insomnia - Tylenol PM and some wine! hmmm... maybe just the tylenol PM, I don't have any wine... Anyway.. I'd hear something and I'd think "Damn it! That little bastard is on some paper... Fuck! now's he's chewing my furniture.." lol.. I'm going to put out some poison tonight or a trap.. I really wish I still had my cat.. she was a damn good mouser.

Well I best go for now... gotta go hunt down a mouse...

Damn, damn, damn... spider, spider, spider.. Ick! Ick! Ick! I really hate spiders. I killed one today. I was sitting on the sofa reading and I caught motion from the corner of my vision, I looked up and there was a spider scampering across the floor! I say scampering, he was almost hopping. That creeped me out quite a bit. I hate spiders, but I really despise spiders (and most bugs for that matter) that can HOP on me. That always causes me to do bizarre things like hop arround doing the bug stomp dance while making a high pitched squeal. This moment of panic has been the amusement of my hubby many a time. Well not tonight. The damned spider crawled under my cedar chest. Grrr... About an hour later I was at the computer (just a few mins ago in fact) and I saw that damned spider hop into my kitchen! I picked up one of my hubby's shoes (which were not supposed to be here by the computer, he was supposed to put them in the bedroom... but tonight I'll excuse him since they were useful) and smacked the crap out of that damned spider. Yes it's dead. In the garbage. I'm glad I used my hubby's shoe though, I hate to kill them with my own shoes.. I don't like the thought of walking around with dead spider on my shoe... might be bad karma... yeah yeah I know, I'm letting him have the bad karma on this one. But hey, he can always say he had no knowledge of the killing. hehehe. I hate spiders but Spider man was always my favorite super hero as a kid (no I haven't seen the movie). Aquaman is now... Batman comeing in second. yeah I read comic books... Blame that on one my hubby... his incredible geekiness has rubbed off on me... That's at least what I tell everyone...

I think I've talked my husband into working out with me. We used to do that about 6 years ago, and he was in really good shape back then.. I was about -- pounds lighter then also. he was being a jerk about it at first, but he's the one that had said he needed to start working out again since he was up to 242 lbs (yeah I will mention his weight on here, but not mine... sue me, I have a double standard... besides he only needs to loose about 30 or 40 lbs.. unlike me!).

Well I should go to bed... It's late..

Ok, so I've been looking for a bag that has paint in it. I can't find it. I know I had it, I remember putting it someplace but ... I can't seem to locate the bag. It has a shit load of paints in it, so I really want to find it. I did however find a different bag that has some paints and all my brushes in it it. YAY! I had forgotten about that. I don't know if I"m going to just paint these items or decoupage them.. I've never done decoupage, but it looks pretty simple. I have 3 items I need to do. A stool, a small chair and a dresser. I think I'll wait on the dresser... I need to consult some people on that before I start anything. It's old, used to be my great grandmother's and needs some repair work done, also have the paint stripped. I have the replacement knobs for the dresser, but I'm not sure how I want to go about this... either paint it white and stensil/decoupage roses on the sides/front or stain it a light color and just put the knobs on... hmmm.... gotta think about that some more. I really don't want to screw up that dresser. It's not very big but it was my great grandmothers so it has some sentimental value.

I've been talking to my oldest nephew lately. He's 17 and just started his senior year in high school. That really freaks me.. I can't believe he is that old. The last time I saw him he was 11!! Now he's a tall handsome young man. And he's going to graduate early... that makes me very proud of him. Having a nephew who is 17 makes me feel older... I can't really say old, I really don't feel old.. but him being 17 is a trip. Hey S-Man! I love you!

Man that thing on the Life Gems that H posted on her blog was freaky! (www.mylifegem.com for thoes interested...) I mean it was morbid... but very interesting... I am sort of interested in them! And I just don't even want to tell you why, you all already think I'm a major freak (or reining Queen of the Dorks, depends on the day..) so I just can't tell you.

I went on a walk today, walked through the shopping center near me, and went into the Hastings. My hubby had told me about this Feng Shui CD for the computer he saw there ($5) but he didn't get it. I tried to find it but I could not. Bummer. But I guess my Feng Shui is good now. My Chi must be flowing well. Things are looking good for us. yesterday Hubby was all excited because we got a refund for our school taxes we have been paying for the past few years! YAY! It wasn't huge but, hey anything is a good thing. ;o)

Anyway.. I'm debating putting flowers and vines on the chair and stool or butterflies... I still don't know if I'll paint or decoupage it... Any thoughts?

L - I just love that link to Savage Love. That kills me! Unfortunately there is no vacation for me in my future except in my fantasies. Financially I am broker than broke... I can't even afford to pay attention. What was that? hehehe.. ok, I know that was totally lame but it did make me smile. Anyway, thanks for the invite, I desperatly wish I could go... anywhere at all.. but it's not something I will be able to comtemplate this year. Next year promises to be much better in all areas and I WILL have a vacation somewhere! Anywhere there are hot bare chested men to serve me frozen drinks. ;o) I hope you can go on your cruise and have a fabulous time, take many pictures and make passes at all the hot men.

I've got fish on the brain. Last night I dreamed I was swimming. I never go swimming. I don't even own a swim suit. But I did in my dream. I was at a friends pool (this friend does not have a pool IRL) and we were all swiming with our kids. Towards the end of the dream I realized I was in a swim suit and I got all self consious because it was not like anything I would really wear. very odd. But last night I also dreamed that I was going to dress up as Cleopatra. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! that was before the swim dream though. Freaky.

I saw this woman recently, she had her eyebrows waxed/shaved off except for a tiny strip about as wide as a pencil lead and about 2 inches long. It looked really awful. I do not know why women are plucking/shaving/waxing their brows off or down to a tiny pencil thin strip. It does not look natural. And it does not look pretty in my opinion. It looks stupid. I remember being a teen ager laughing at elderly woman who did that. Now a lot of young women and teen agers do it. Hmmm... wonder when it's going to happen that all women will have to get cosmetic surgery to fit the 'beauty' model.... For all you women who DON'T shave/wax/pluck their eye brows to a tiny line or worse until they are gone completly, I admire you. Oh yeah, I don't do that at all.. the places I have to shave/wax/pluck are necessary for me not to be considered a circus freak. Laser hair removal is something on my wish list. *sigh*

Better go.. have a lovely day....

Ahhhh a moment of peace... lol.

Spike is such a big fish now. He must be 3 inches long. I wonder if my feeding him frequently has made him grow so big. I refuse to do anymore goldfish research... I know far to much about them right now.. and the thought of a 40 year old gold fish just depresses me. The thought of doing CPR on a fish confuses me quite a bit. Can't think about that anymore.. my brain might explode.

I think I figured out what was giving me indigestion... RC cola. My hubby had bought some the other day because it was on sale, I told him he could get Coke if he wanted - that's his favorite, but he knows I perfer Dr. Pepper, which he doesn't like very well, so he bought the RC. Apparently that is more acidic that the other two drinks. Oh well. I don't really like it all that well anyway. Maybe I was just having a reaction to drinking RC and not having a Moon Pie with it... hmmm.... Moon Pie withdrawal. hehehee.. I haven't had a Moon Pie in YEARS. I can't even remember if I really liked them or not.. which probably means... I didn't HAHAHAHAHA. Now I have this urge to go get a Moon Pie...

OK, this is a strange thing.. I have noticed that for the past few weeks I've worn the same shirt on Wednesday. White sleveeless with black edgeing. I noticed that on Monday... I made sure to wear the shirt today so I wouldn't be wearing it tomorrow. I know.. that's freaky...... bizarre... and that I noticed it.. even more so... I hope I'm not breaking some kind of cosmic cycle that shouldn't be broken. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

L- I read that article about that book.. It sounds interesting, but I know I could not read that at all. I'm far to affected by things I read, I'd dream about it and be upset. I had a nightmare the day I watched The Others, and that wasn't a particularly scary movie, very suspensful though... So... the thought of reading a book like "Lovely Bones" is not a pleasant one for me. I do like books like that though, I just can't seem to get them off my mind after I read them. Lately I've been reading one of the Chicken Soup For the Soul books and another Feng Shui book.

Well I need to go make dinner... I'm thinking Pie... Moon Pie! hehehe.. just kidding....

Well I WAS all done with the laundry. This evening my dear husband stopped up the commode and it over flowed, so he had to use all the towels in that bathroom to soak up the water on the floor. The towels and bath mats are in the washer now. *sigh* It's a good thing we have more towels than any family of 4 needs... I just replaced the towels with some from the upstairs linen closet.

I've had a sinus headache most of today.. I'm tired of having this damn headache...

I'm off to bed now...

I'm all done with my laundry.. All quiet here. I looked up some info on gold fish. I wanted to see how long they live. I started wondering after I read a story that involved goldfish last week. Well... let me tell you.. it is MUCH longer than I had expected. The longest living gold fish was 43! Damn! I thought after a year or so it's time to head to WalMart for another $.39 fish... or hope that my child would no longer be interested in any aquatic pet/creature. Goldfish, if taken care of well, can live about 10 years or so... WHAT?!?! That's like having a cat or a dog or some REAL pet! A goldfish is NOT a real pet, it is a self propelled nic-nack that I feed a few times a day. It does not provide the emotional connection that a REAL pet does. Hmmm... and I take good care of this little bugger... but... I didn't want him forever... Anyway.... on to other things.. I was looking at the page and saw "first aid tips for your goldfish". Huh? First aid? For your GOLDFISH? you've got to be kidding. Come on, isn't the first sign of trouble most of us notice is when the fish is floating on the top? Then the only 'Aid' it needs involves sooping and flushing. They even had a little paragraph on giving fish CPR. As if! Sorry Spike, but that's not going to happen. If you have a heart attack in that tank, your just going to go to fish heaven (via the comode that is hehehe). Ya know, here I am painfully disinterested in my fish, but not willing to let him die, or worse to kill him (that would just be wrong) and this little fucker is probably going to live well past my children going off to college. I'll be an old old woman with a big goldfish.

I just had to share.. I felt it was just something rather rediculous.. fish CPR....

L - clasper... *snicker* Go sharks!

Well A I'm glad your feeling better today... and.. if you ever do have a body stashed in your trunk.. give me a call... I'll help you with that. ;o) That's what friends do, laugh at you when your drunk, help you clean up if you puke, help you get rid of a body and buy you ice cream and chocolate when you are down. Who know's I may need your help stashing a body some day. hehehe.. just kidding.. I prefer to stick with voodoo dolls. *snicker* that was funny... get it... Stick... voodoo dolls... stick... get it? hehehe.. Ok, I'm amuseing to my self at least...

Wow - L - I hope you can go on that Alaskan cruise! That would be incredible... and in my opinion far superior to the Hawaiian vacation... well except for the bare chested guys serving frozen drinks... can't beat that.... but... Alaska has a ratio of like 10 men to every woman... Alaska has promise... ;o) My hubby and I had planned to take an Alaskan cruise for our honeymoon, but then changed our minds... we wanted to go to New Orleans and stay in a haunted plantation that is now a hotel... but we changed our minds (yet again!)... ok, it was me that changed my mind... so we took a road trip through Oklahoma - went to Turner Falls... I had seen this amazing picture of the falls and thought it would be extremely romantic to get a cabin there... they advertised that it had no television or phone... perfect for a honeymoon... Well... Turner falls was amazing... from the place they took that damn picture! It wasn't all that when we saw it up close, and it was more of a family place... swimming and all... not my cup of tea... also the cabin had a television and phone... ho hum... we did have fun, we explored the caves and a fort that had been built up there... The next day at Arbukle Wilderness park was a blast. Anyway... We should have saved the money on the wedding, eloped and took the Alaskan Cruise instead. Although now I have been thinking about taking a trip back to Turner Falls and the wilderness park, I know the kids would love it... LOL Damn, I sure ramble.

Well I finally watched the entire movie Lord Of The Rings. It was really good. Took me 3 days to watch it... *sheesh* a 3 hour movie is way to long for me to sit still and watch from start to finish. But I enjoyed the hell out of it. I didn't watch the beginning of it.. but on Friday night I started watching the middle of it (I never do that!) then went to bed, it was so late.. then watched the end of it Saturday. And on Sunday I said I wanted to watch the beginning of it. So hubby stuck it back in lol. I figured what the heck, it was 10 pm and we didn't have anything else to do. I never read the Lord Of The Rings, but I did read The Hobbit when I was 9 or so. It was a very enjoyable movie.. I think I may have enjoyed it most because we do play AD&D and that elvin fighter kicked some major ass. Well that and that hot ranger, Arogon.... mmmm he was nice to watch.. such penetrating eyes... his character kicked ass in a fight also... to bad we don't have characters like that in our game... we wouldn't end up running so much. HAHAHAHAHAHA! OK, enough game talk, now everyone knows I am a gaming geek.

I ended up working out last night, we took a nice long walk before dinner. We have such a nice neighborhood it's nice to take a walk. Oh speaking of walking - A - congrats on your little lady walking! YAY! ... or should I be sending a sympathy card? Now she is even MORE mobile and that much harder to keep an eye on. *sigh* hehehe... Tell me what size she is wearing now.. it' time to clean out the closet again, I figured you could get first pick of the clothes before I send them off to charity.

Must run for now. Almost done with my laundry. I need to clean up from lunch and get dinner started in the crock pot while it's all quiet here.

OMG - A - you crack me up sooo much! THAT's what you were upset about last night? That's all? The way you were talking I thought you might have killed someone and stashed the body in your trunk, then realized that you had a body in your trunk when you sobered up. Calling people at 2 am when your drunk is excuseable. The recipient of the call might be a bit pissed at first, but later they will be amused. Hell I would have laughed my ass off if you called me.. incidentally I WAS up at 2 am so you could have called and we could have discussed how neither one of us has that wild, single life anymore..... and for that matter we probably never really did... infact I really don't know anyone who really HAD that wild of a single life... I had my moments of wildness but they were fleeting and I wouldn't trade my boreing old life as a mom for any of that.

But drinking blue stuff? hmmm... that's not even natural... hehehe...

I was just reading A's blog. Dear, dear A, you really need to put comments on your blog... anyway... things always appear the darkest before the dawn... or right after you sober up enough to be aware that you were slobbering drunk just a short time a go. The fear (or knowledge) that you did something embarrasing or unforgiveable is always at it's highest at that moment. My advice... let it go. If you must, make a statement like "Man I was drunk last night, I don't even remember most of it... I hope I wasn't an ass... " leave it like that. You can't be held responsible for things you say or do in that circumstance. Now stop worring about this, you hardly ever drink so cut yourself some slack.

Yikes... I have a sinus headache. It's almost 1 am and I have a horrible sinus headache. I can't take anything this late because it will make me either all hyper and I'll do a major crash and burn tomorrow while at work or I'll take something and it will make me to tired to get up in the morning. So I will just have to suffer! Whaaa... I'm such a whiney baby...